By: Allie Gips, MD 

It is hot and I am tired and I am walking out of the hospital feeling angry when the man yells to me.

That’s a big chip!

I am eating a rice cake. It’s a rice cake, I say.

Aw, man! He is genuinely disappointed. I thought it was the biggest chip in the world!!

I smile. That would be better.

Well, you deserve it, he says. You deserve the biggest chip in the world.

It is hot and I am tired and my shift was too long but I laugh.

I mean it, he says. You deserve the biggest chip in the world!!

I say thank you. Go home. Go to sleep. Go back to work.

I find myself thinking of him over and over again. I carry him with me for the rest of the week as I battle the humidity, the hours, the feelings of incompetence and inefficiency and imperfection that plague us all.

You deserve the biggest chip in the world, he told me, and for once, I believe it. Maybe  he’s right. Maybe I do deserve the biggest chip in the world.

 Maybe we all do.


Resident Author: Allie Gips, MD
Faculty Review: Elizabeth Mitchell, MD